Random Stuff

Yesterday was hellish....it's TOM (is that TMI?), sometimes I get so tired during that time....I mean that can't think, it feels like you're walking through cotton, can barely move one foot in front of the other bone numbing tired.

And I wish I was exaggerating.

I still had to work.  Then take kid number 1 to PT.  Oh why? Because I basically suck as a mother and a nurse.  He twisted his ankle while I was at work so my mother-in-law drove him to the ED in the hospital where I work and I met them down there.  He was expressing 8/10 pain, while he was doing this I was behind his back shaking my head and rolling my eyes....she gave him some Advil and off to x-ray he went. No break (yay) but after a couple of hours he still insisted his pain was 8/10 -- which freakin' screams 'drug seeker' even if that drug is Advil....and given my family history with alcohol and drugs AND the experience I have with certain patients (jaded much?) I dismissed his pain and did a lot more eye rolling.

Well, it's not a sprain, it's freakin' nerve damage.

So yeah, 8/10 pain, totally appropriate.

Oh and my insistence on ice -- worst thing evah!

Yes, I am the mom/nurse that sent the same kid to school with Pneumonia and told him to suck it up -- this was after three days of keeping him out of school. The school nurse called and suggested I take him to the doc...he was out the rest of the week.

He's so going to need therapy....but all during PT last night he kept asking the PT to remind me I was wrong about the ice -- and he had that grin on his face -- I think he'll be alright.

Oh back to last night, before PT was Chipotle, because did I mention I was tired? I had chicken with fajita veggies and black bean bowl -- no rice, no cheese and mild salsa with a little bit of guac. -- another digression here -- what are your favorite diet/bariatric friendly meals when going out? This might be a future post :D -- okay then after PT we went to Dairy Queen since a percentage of the proceeds from last night go to the elementary school where the youngest goes.  I love those nights because it's fun to see other school families supporting the school and the local community. I did not order anything, but did take two bites of the younger's blizzard...chocolate covered pretzel blizzard um YUM.

Then got home about 8, crawled into bed of no less than three blankets and armed in a sweat shirt, pajama bottoms and thick warm socks -- when will it be Spring....my gosh it's been so cold! And promptly fell asleep.  I didn't even get to see how they finished the remodel on whatever was on HGTV at that time.

This post is totally random, because I'm also about to share with you something random and funny that happened to be the other day:

 random doc told me I looked like Susan Sarandon...which I don't -- but I'm wondering is this a compliment, because she's pretty or NOT because she's like older than my mother (she was born in '46 -- my mom would kill me if I told you when she was born, but it was after '46) here's how it went down...
doc: you look familiar
me: yeah, i have one of those faces
doc: no you really look familiar
me: I don't think we've met before
doc: (hmmm, starts to leave room, comes back) Susan Sarandon, you totally look like Susan Sarandon
me: wow, never heard that one before (my mistake, because now doc being a doc has to be RIGHT)
doc: (proceeds to ask all those around us) she looks like Susan Sarandon doesn't she
people around doc, who don't want to tell doc he's wrong: yeah, sure (look at me like he's nuts)
me: well, that's not a bad thing, I think
doc -- apparently satisfied and leaves so I can have my meeting

The celebrity I usually get described as is Ricki Lake (I have no idea how she spells her name) and not the skinny Ricki either.  But hey, I'll take Susan -- she's very pretty -- and I'm going to go with he meant a younger Susan Sarandon :D.

It's FRIDAY

woot
Have a great weekend blogland friends.

What? Two Posts in a week?

Another what did I eat in a day....it happens to be a good day -- well sort of! 

So I'm giving up my presweetened yummy goodness creamer and going for the fat-free half and half and sugar free hazelnut syrup.  It's good...it's not the same, but it's good.

I had to work until 8 pm last night so I had to pack everything with me.  I really do believe one of the keys to success in this weight loss journey is through planning.

Breakfast as I got in to work (well a little after since I forgot my lunch bag -- so much for being prepared -- thankfully I have an awesome husband and he brought it to me) -- two turkey sausage patties and blueberries and strawberries.

 The registered dietician gave me this idea, plain greek yogurt and your favorite dip mix which for me is a dill mix, sometimes I go with a ranch mix. Then some cut up vegetables.  I love veggies and dip but needed my protein with it and this was the way to do it.  It's also a way to get some of that yogurt in without going sweet.

 Has any one tried these yellow grape tomatoes...OMG they are so sweet and so yummy and I love these black bean burgers -- I try to a couple non meat meals in during the day - especially plant based ones with eating so much protein it's hard to get in those fruits and veggies and as any mother knows we need those fruits and veggies..

 Because part of my day was sitting in meetings, this was a good grab and go snack.

These are all my meals that I took to work with me.  I'm glad I work in an office with a fridge and a microwave, it does really make it easier to follow my mean plan....Because those 12 hour shifts on the floor would take much more planning....and definitely wouldn't be able to take time to eat my meals as it would be shoving nuts in my mouth between patients.

Confession -- even though I planned grab and go for my meeting, I stopped by the hospital cafeteria and bought a medium chai latte. It's a bit dangerous because you just have to swipe your badge and they take it out of your check.  I burned my tongue though so that was my penance.

What this day netted?
874 calories
122 g of carbs
63 g of protein
and
drum roll
82 whopping grams of sugar (damn chai latte -- it was really good though)

Wednesday Weigh In -- um not

Ugh, I've been off the reservation BAD about my eating and I'm afraid to get on the scale.

Today is another day!

And I woke up with the best of intentions of getting my flabby body on the elliptical and just.couldn't.do.it.

I'm in a funk and am having a bit of a hard time getting out of it.  Sometimes it just takes so much energy to work full time, be a mom of kids in activities, a wife, running the household, being a friend. Frankly, I've been sucking at all of these things.  Also sucking at taking care of myself.

My sister has fallen off the wagon and is drinking ... drinking a lot. This might have something to do about it?

A new job? I have no idea what I'm doing -- I hate that. Being smart is my thing.  Because it isn't being pretty or sexy (I'm not ugly, I'm just not, whoa, check her out awesome -- more bring home to your mother pretty and appropriate -- the kind of pretty where women and gay men find me pretty - Lesbians and straight men, not so much).

bleh
ugh
meh

Soooo, today I'm going to work hard in getting out of my funk. It's going to be a really long day at work -- which will give me an opportunity to NOT eat in front of the TV after work until bed time.

I did get my hair done yesterday -- I went short -- I love it. Here's a picture. Keep in mind, I really suck at those mirror shots -- not really a skill I'm feeling a need to perfect though.

Now that I have cheek bones and a jaw line again I feel good about going short.

Here's to restarting, getting back on that horse, starting over and getting it done!