Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Wednesday weigh in

Starting Weight 318
Last Weight 283
Current Weight 280

Just two pounds from 40 whoo hooo. I'm a little excited. I can actually pull down my capris without unbuttoning or unzipping them.  There are a couple of blouses I can wear that I haven't been able to since the last time I lost these same pounds....In two pounds I'll be where I was after my thousand plus dollar mistake of Slimgenics a couple years back (lost 30, gained back 40).  

And twenty pounds after that, I'll be where I was after my thousand plus dollar mistake of LA Weight Loss about six years ago -- where I lost 20 and gained back 40.

I'm not even going to bother with the 15 or so times I tried Weight Watchers during that time frame and lost 5 or 10 and gained back 10 to 20.

I feel like I've lost these pounds so many times.  Even though I'm beginning to look a little different and feel a little different, I am still leery of the weight loss.  It's this stage of weight loss that in the past I would give up because it's so freakin' hard to maintain that type of eating and/or exercise regime (right now I've started with half-hour walks three times a week and will move up from there). Weight loss for me is not permanent. Even with this fabulous tool I will always have to be diligent with what I eat and how much I eat.  It's a whole new mind set.

I do see one thing has changed....I am no longer thinking, "I know better, or I know more about nutrition etc."  I am humbly putting myself in the hands of my doctor's staff and saying, "you do know more than I do" and "I will follow your wisdom"  

Because, frankly, following my own didn't get me anywhere except some weird yo-yo thing that got me to where I am now (or where I was 38 pounds ago).

This is certainly a journey.  It's not a quick fix.  

But it is a journey I'm gladly participating in.

Have a fabulous Wednesday everyone.






21 comments:

  1. great job!! keep up the great work. :)

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  2. YAY! So cool. I loved that you compared your success to the other options you tried. It is so true that they can work for a little bit, but it never keeps you in check after you have lost the weight. Keep it up!

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  3. thanks...that was the problem, couldn't keep in check AND it was hard to maintain in order to lose the weight I needed to. -- I know I'm not alone.

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  4. Great job on the loss this week! And you have to believe the weight loss will be permanent, lady - or else it won't be. :(

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    1. thanks....you're right...it's just a shift in thinking...sometimes that shift is harder than the food plan itself :D

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  5. I am so glad I found your blog, I can so relate! I was a WW leader at one time, and have had a lot of therapy for an ED...so I have a hard time not thinking I know it all already and tuning out if someone is giving me advice about diet. I think it is quite a breakthrough you are at a place of trust with your medical team. Btw, I also LOVE your "cross off check list" tab. I am a list-a-holic. Sometimes I write something down I have already done, just so I can check it off and feel better about my day, lol!! If I can figure out how to use a tab feature on my blog, may I copy your idea about making a similar set of goal lists for myself to "see" my progress? Congratulations on how far you have come already, I'm excited for you!

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    1. thanks for stopping by! FYI tabs, go to design then on the left hand side should have a menu, go to 'pages' and I think that's where you get the tabs on top. And lol, I too will put things on my list that I've already done so I can cross it off and feel better about how much I'm getting done....

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  6. Great job on the loss! I completely understand the skepticism - after so many failed diet attempts, I'm nervous that the success I see this time is going to be just another failure. Self-confidence is so crucial!

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  7. Congrats on your journey. I will be starting mine on the 17th. I had heard (through the grapevine) that you were having surgery, so I wanted to support you as much as I could since we were going to be on the same journey. I am so happy for you and that you are doing this for yourself. Much love to you!!

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    1. hey aimee have you decided to blog about it? are you going to go through dr. snyder? or go through the same doc as crystal? I went through snyder and his team is great. I don't think you'll regret it!

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